LiFe's DeCIsION

First of all, i am so proud that some of my friend life and future's decisions after SPM. Yw finally make up her mind to study FIA(foundation in art) in Sunway while seng decide to study FIS (foundation in science) in IMU...at this moment, i haven't know my destination of my new pages of life...maybe i am so confuse about my future...i wanted to become a forensic science so much but due to parent's opposition, i decide to study biotechnology ...n again my parent oppose it..they want me to become a pharmacist...well, at this moment, who can decide to study what courses  during degree...and the most important thing is i haven't start my pre-u courses..so, i chose to put my ambitions aside first...after finishing foundation or A levels, only crack my mind to think about it...

A levels or foundation??..i have trouble choosing this two pre-u courses....my worry about A levels is the scare of English standard and level..i scare A levels English  is a bit too high to me...To be honest, i suffering in English phobia for the first time during my mid term school exam...i was too scare to face English exam...when i looked into the English exam paper , my mind black out and i can't think of anything about the essay i needed to write...feeling lost and anxious, i wrote an essay that only worth 25 marks out of 50 marks...however, i gain my courageous to face English again by keep writing essay to train myself in this language..In three months of hard work..my English essay result rise to 38 out of 50 marks...i truly believe hardworking  is a way to let yourself into the path of success.

.u may think i chose A levels as my choice of pre-u courses...well, sorry to disappointed u that i had made up my mind to study FIS in IMU because i want to do my degree locally without preparing myself to go overseas...besides, foundation can give me a head start about my degree program..so, i think FIS is suitable and will be fine to me..that means i will study in the same university with seng...u think i may be happy to study with my former classmates..erm, ya, i can't deny that i feel a bit happy after hearing the news that seng is study the same uni with me...however feeling nervous is more than feeling happy...and the most serious problem is i don't know why there is a feeling of nervous about the surprise news..maybe i will find out during the first day of university life in IMU...

Talking back about yw, i am so worry about her..because we will be separate due to different uni and foundation...She is an introvert person..i hope she can find herself some good friend to help her in studies and of course helping her anytime she needs help...i am too far to give her a helping hand anymore...i also hope that she can take the initiative to get herself some new friends..

A message to yw..i will give you moral support always and forever...but in academic, i can't help u much... as long as you try yourself to fit in a group of people, u will get yourself new friends..but remember, a friend is not ask to be changed...don't try to change yourself to fit in a group of person..maintain  yourself as the real yw....that is still someone that will stay beside you...you are not lonely all the time...believe in yourself , don't look down toward yourself and always think positive...success in meant to hide behind failures..Failure will make you a stronger person...so, don't feel insecure or unsafe when dealing with failure...you will be fine as long as you endure those failures...believe it or not..i will support and motivate you all the time...lets open up the new pages of our life..walk into it with full of confidence...set our eyes toward the target of our life , walk pass those failures and achieve success ...remember the words

the road to success is not straight

there is a curve called failure

a loop called confusion

speed bumps called friends,

red lights called enemies

caution lights called enemies.

you will have flat tires called jobs

but if you have a spare called

DETERMINATION

an engine called

PERSEVERANCE

a driver called 

WILL POWER AND POSITIVE THINKING

driving experiences called

BELIEVING 

you will make it to a place called SUCCESS 

PiNKY PiNKY

After going to the shopping mall, i decided to buy 2 pairs of shoes...1 pairs is for sport and another 1 is for the celebration of the Chinese new years...every times when choosing color ...pink and purple are definitely not my option...this is because i hate pink and purple  the most..these two colors look very girlish to me...however if thing that has the color of blue, black and white..OMG, i love it and will buy it straight away...however this time..

both pairs of shoes are pink....i prepare to buy the black and white color shoes...but my mum kept on nagging me...oo...you are a girl...so must wear pinky a bit...pink lady...don't always brought black and white shoes...it looks like man's shoes...well, mum..i am almost 18 years, i don't want to become Cinderella by putting on those pinky pinky shirt, dress and shoes on me...

Conclusion, i also love those pairs of shoes...EXCEPT FOR THE PINK COLOR!!

2011

when i was in Facebook...i found that i had written a note about things that happen in year 2011..i can't remember what happen to me exactly on that time..this is the note

GONE AWAY

I think you're gone away 

And I don't know what to say... 

I pushed you back from my sadness 

I guess I can blame it on myself... 

I pried and pried... 

I shook my head no! 

I now know where your hole would have lie... 

Days and weeks of silent cries... 

I apologize to you... 

I apologize to myself... 

I let another one go... 

Slowly and quietly you stroll 

With my heart our friendship... 

I can put you in my collection... 

Dust you every once in a while 

Smile and remember

this note is kind of feeling expression...hope that i can remind back about the incident that cause me to write this note...when something bad happened  to me, i always hid it into the deep in my heart..after that, i can't remember about the bad things..this is good sometimes...i think my mind has a big recycle bin that will recycle all those bad memories n leave the  good memories  inside the mind.only..haha

ThE FEElING Of LOsE

Missing someone is hard but having them standing next to you and not being able to find the topics of words to tell them is torturing... 

TRuTH

well...fst of all ..what is d benefits of having holiday?....ya, there r a bunch of answers out there...we can relax, do whatever we want except study and exams, travel, suffering internet for 24 hrs.etc....however, holiday can also cause lengthen of relationship...ya, in this few days...i kinda exhausted just to wait someone to call me or text me...ya, none of them do that...so, i m like a idiot trying to hope them to call or even send me something during holiday...this is a fact...during holiday, they will tend to forget each other n live their life by themselves...u can say..we must give freedom n some space to them...ya, i agree with that...however ...giving freedom and space to them does not mean that they need to forget us totally without contacting us during holiday...haiz, i think this is a typical human we are in this century...sometimes we need them, but when our ends meet, that is the end of the whole relationship...out of sight, out of mind...that is a truth...so, in the future, don treat someone too good, cause u will have lose in the end....human come to this world alone, and leave the world alone too..so, don expect someone especially friends to treat u d way u treat them...

FRiEND

well....i had my last outing wth yw n seng...we go jusco ....singing in Greenbox n watching movie...i wish this is not d last outing..however, after spm..who bother  to waste time going out wth a person that u know u won't meet anymore?.. d answer is none...At greenbox, can u imagine two beautiful girl sandwich a small innocence looking girl.....scream at u n say if u don sing, they wil definitely kill u...well, all i can say that is these two girls look beautiful, but deep inside is horrible(pity those who become their boyfriend)...After greenbox, we all went to watch Frozen in d cinema ...we went to watch cartoon AGAIN!!!!...my only comment to this movie was..BORING!!..i spent almost half an hrs sleeping in d cinema juz beause of those sleeping song in d movie...But it was still worth to watch d movie because those girls beside me almost cried when they saw d younger sister willing to sacrificed herself just to save her sister in d movie...d most unforgettable part in this whole outing was...both d girls spending almost half an hrs in d fitting room...n both wearing d same blue dress which d middle was empty....at first i thought that d middle part was just a belt , when i looked closely...that is their stomach....OMG!!!..never meet crazy friends who showed their stomach in front of me...scare me out of hell ...HAHA....so, after this outing, i wish we will have outing another time...n thks for these two girls who appeared in my secondary school's life n make my life more meaningful..

YW, know u abt 5 yrs already...u n i had changed a lot(physical n attitude)..d one that does not change at all is yr chubby face(keep it chubby, tats cute)....without u, i donno how to face my years in form 2 n 3....u came into my life at d very right moment...i m very happy to be able to spend 5 yrs time wth u...wish i can also spend  next year wth u....i love yr smile...so must smile always in d future...i found out u have become very beautiful this few years n u have mutual mind...u can always see d other side which i cannot not seen...yr karate skill ( which always aim at d wrong body part)...i will rmb that all d time!!..n remind myself not to find a friend that has d same height as u...haha...happy to know u from d fst day in form 1 when u put electric on me..cause me short circuit ....my only wish for u ...is good luck in yr life n FAST  Go MARRY!!....haha...u r very humour ...u r clever but lazy....if u become hardworking...u sure will become a genius..!!

SENG,( d one who love to draw piggy logo). well...from my memory...i rmb tat i know u better in  form 4 when u take yr physics exercise book n ask whether i can do d questions annot....i also learn total internal reflection from u...u draw me a lousy diamond n make me confuse!!!...ya, n d fst time we went to KH account competition...fst time i saw a person do account without calculator...n dump me during lunch time!!!..(those r bad memories )...d thing i rmb d most n will not forget...is .....YR MUM 'S HERBAL EGG...omg...that was delicious!!!...haha...n i found out that u r  crazy sometimes especially during happy...jumping on d greenbox sofa like tarzan...haha...u have serious face every times u do yr revision in d class( unlike yw)....tat was good because it means u treat yr academy very importantly...u r very hardworking , full of determination n conscience..hope u achieve success in d future n found yr NAJIB ..haha..